So here's my big confession! I am absolutely SUCKING right now at my health and fitness! I have NO motivation, I have not worked out in so many days I have lost count and I am feeling very depressed and lost at the moment!
Now, part of this is a long string of sickness making its way through my house; it started with me, went to my older son and took him out of school for 4 days, then spread to my youngest son, now my youngest daughter. . . it's been impossible for me to teach classes and almost impossible to meet with my private personal training clients and I have definitely not been sticking to my own workout program. I am doing everything possible wrong right now -- not drinking water, not working out (barely getting out of bed!), not eating almost all day long then eating garbage in the evening. I am literally the poster child for everything a fitness professional does NOT do!!
Of course I feel guilty and embarrassed to share that I'm an epic FAIL right now at leading a healthy lifestyle, so why am I sharing this? Because I've given myself permission to just CHILL, just BE, and just do what I can to keep my boat afloat . . . cleaning up puke, making my way through laundry and being covered for most of the day in a human blanket of influenza . . . trying to keep some semblance of food supply to those who are still healthy in the household and attempting to keep the filth at bay so that we don't all succumb to botulism before Christmas. Basically, if I can get a load of laundry and dishes done, feed whoever is expressing interest in food and check a few emails and take a couple of calls during the day, I'm calling it good. Do not assume that I am omitting the mention of a shower or any personal hygiene for myself in that list of daily to-do's -- it just ain't happenin' right now. Nor are workouts, nor is meal planning or even taking vitamins! It's just not! I'm sorry!
So, here's what I'm taking from all of this -- my friends have encouraged me to lay this out there for anyone who reads this blog so that a) you can see that I am human, and I definitely have my own personal trials in maintaining my own healthy lifestyle and b) sometimes with holidays, children and life you just can't live the ideal that you'd like to live.
On the flip side, I have been struggling mightily in the fourth quarter of 2012 with the balance between work/working out and the time and energy I have been devoting to my family. I almost feel like this is the Universe telling me to slow down, sit back, snuggle my babies, watch endless episodes of Horseland and Strawberry Shortcake and play Angry Birds Star Wars for hours on end. That's what my little feverish pukers want to do. I can't make the sick go away but I can hold them and cue up the next level. They want their mommy, and since that's all I can do to help, that's what I'm giving them.
I figure that, compared to last year at this time, I haven't gained any weight (as opposed to the 20 lbs. I packed on in cookies and eggnog during Holidays 2011), my tree is up and the house is fairly festive, I've done a little bit of Christmas shopping and the rest will get done . . . when it gets done. I'm just over stressing out about this stuff and I'm getting back to the basics and taking things one day at a time!
Today I made a conscious effort to drink more water. I've been so bad that my lips are cracking from dehydration, so that was number one on the list. I got a new workout and bag of Shakeology in the mail, so I also went ahead and had a shake and asked my Dear Hubby to pick me up some fruit for add-ins. So improved nutrition will continue tomorrow. I will be training one client tomorrow and another Friday and have a group workout scheduled for Saturday, so I'll start up a new workout week tomorrow. I got my big confession off my chest, so I've got a plan and I'm feeling better already!!
One last caveat to the "I'm a huge loser this week" blog post . . . although I have been tending to toddlers and toilets and not taking off thermals, much less trekking from my home, I am still getting a paycheck each week. In fact, today's is my best of the year for some odd reason, which is fantastic since as I mentioned, I still have a mountain of Christmas shopping that remains. This is the beauty and brilliance of a passive, residual income and not only have I not gained weight this December as I did last, but I haven't lost any financial ground this year as I have in year's past. Even in December, even in a down economy, my business grows year over year and I continue to learn and grow as an entrepreneur and a fitness professional and continue to expand that business each quarter.
I mention this only because I know this current struggle is only temporary. I know I will get back on track with my nutrition and fitness very soon and that when I do my business will continue to grow and thrive. I have that hope, that goal, that light at the end of the tunnel and I know everything will be fine soon. Even though I'm freaking out that I haven't exercised in, like, six days!!
If you are stuck but DON'T feel like you have a light or a hope then it's time to radically CHANGE the way you have been doing things. If you are struggling with your fitness, your health, your finances, I can help you! I can show you what I have done to keep those struggles as temporary setbacks, not as a way of life! As you can see, I'm not doing it perfect 100% all of the time; there is room for human error! I'm here to help, and only by helping others do I have the strength and motivation to help myself.
So tell me, what can I help YOU with??
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